01. Here we were and it was winter. We went on the Ferris wheel, me and the baby. It was only $10 to see the entire Niagara Falls, from the point of view of an angel, three times in a row.
02. After we checked in, the baby had a nap. I thought about people in other rooms, waiting, like me. Or not waiting. I knew I wasn’t alone even though it felt that way.
03. I fell asleep in the big bed. It wasn’t even night but I closed the blinds and turned all the lights on to make it seem as if it was. I wanted to divide my day – the Ferris wheel and after the Ferris wheel – before he showed up. My dreams were short, unfinished like the color yellow in the rain, some sort of foggy ghosts.
04. He watched me put lipstick on. He said he liked my girl hat. Only girls know how to make that hat out of a towel, that’s why I call it “the girl hat,” he said.
05. He said, show me the new red tights. That’s right. That’s a good girl.
06. We agreed that I’ve lost some weight after the baby. The fireplace was fake. We turned it on and opened our presents in front of it anyway.
07. After he left, the baby woke up and seemed extra clingy. It followed me around everywhere. It felt as if it wanted me to explain something.
